REFLECTIONS OF CRIMSON INDIGO BLOG

Reflections on Convergence Part V

1/20/2019

TONIGHT:We explore the relationship between our lead characters and the ongoing development of the project Of Crimson Indigo: Convergence.

RACE TANNER™, 35, HUMAN MALE, fits the hero type, but not our lead hero. He thinks he’s invincible. Has a good head of hair and believes it makes him attractive to the opposite sex. Although he can be arrogant at times, he’s actually sentimental, especially when he feels threatened by overwhelming odds or a lover’s quarrel. Race also believes that eyes are the windows to the soul and can reveal the individual’s deepest secrets when angered, loved or intoxicated.He hopes to one day find what he is looking for, because he has no idea what it is he’s supposed to find to solve the world’s problems on his own, he has to ask for help, but only as a last resort.

Race believes the world is there for the taking but has no idea of how to attain its worth other than to simply take what he wants; however, his own conviction and childhood memories of being a boulevard ragamuffin and pickpocket on the streets of Wilburton Macula keeps him at bay. Nevertheless, he has attained some status as a corporate runner in the service of the Industries, and hopes that the next job will be the one that brings him that big score. Little does he know that he has a lot to learn before even the simplest of life’s pleasures are attainable!Race needs to find his way in life, even if it gets him killed. He needs to succeed; it’s the single most important force driving him through life. He is constantly at odds with the universe, yet he still sees the light at the end of the tunnel and purposefully heads off anything that gets in his way. Now, on a desolate world, where the past, present and future all coexist, he’s faced with the one thing capable of helping him succeed or fail and the future of his own universe hangs in the balance.

Emotionally, Race is transfixed on impressing Olivia no matter the cost, he just has a hard time getting past his ego, which is what he unconsciously needs to overcome in order to live a good life. It’s required if he’s going to get over this hump and find his way to actually loving someone beside himself. However, Race pines for Olivia, his lust out reaches his sincerity and consciously he has trouble showing his true emotional attachment to her and the outward need he longs for with her. It’s not that is only goal is to get laid, its just part of his make up. He desires to be the person she wants but has no idea how to attain God’s approval with her, yet he keeps trying, and that only sends him into a tailspin when he gets shot down, crashes and burns due to Olivia’s constant rejection of his adolescent behavior. Nevertheless,Race has to do the right thing. No matter what, he has to find a way to save the day, and perhaps the damsel in distress.

As a matter if fact,Race has no fucking idea that Olivia loves him, always has, always will. He’s just too stupid to realize it. However, every day brings him a little closer to knocking down his walls, which in turn may one day chip away at his perception of reality. Nonetheless, he is, who he is, and his current mission is bound to be an experience filled with never imagined wonders, relationships and facts beyond his comprehension. It’s a good thing he’s the center of his own universe, otherwise he just may find his way into a whole new realm of existence. And, although he can be an arrogant son of a bitch, he can be helpful at times. He’s even been known to play the superior, cynical, sloth that is eager to override the letter of the day and do what he wants, regardless of the impact on the others or the mission. However, as a rule, Race is a team player, so long as it gets him the big chair at the front of the hall. He is reliable, but compulsive. The only thing he’s ever been dishonest about is his own feelings. He’s not what one might consider lazy, or crazy, he is however, a bit funny, and genuinely a workaholic. The mission isn’t done till the paperwork is finished so-to-speak, and he’s the leader of the pack.

Race is definitely an anxiety-ridden person, but fear of the unknown isn’t a part of his vocabulary. He knows when others are worried and tries to curve their depression. He genuinely loves what he does and attempts to show compassion for others when it doesn’t go against his personality. He was orphaned at the age of ten when his father was killed during a dockside accident that took the life of most of the dockworkers on Wilburton Macula. His mother died during childbirth and Race has never forgiven himself for causing her death. It’s a conflict he’s dealt with to no avail all of his life. The loss of his father only further triggered his lack of self-esteem, and Race considers his newfound freedom given rather than earned. He’s skeptical and ambitious, yet lacks the confidence in his decisions unless all the facts line up. He has never known true love, even though Olivia is the closest thing he has ever come to in the realm of relationships, it remains a far cry from being actual romance. His embattled spirit must come first and he puts himself on the frontlines, not as a heroic gesture, but rather as a protective umbrella around those he cares for, especially Olivia. More important, Race has no idea of how to contain or overcome his loveless life, his need for companionship beyond his need for self-indulgence, yet above all else, his deepest unresolved emotion is forgiveness. He has not yet discovered the true meaning of compassion, love and vulnerability. His lack of childhood confidence and self-esteem has left him wounded in the ways of the world, and from time to time, he unwittingly displays his imperfections.

Beyond life itself, Race needs to resolve his physical discomfort when it comes to being a man, simple, kind, loving and in need of companionship. At times this lack of manly maintenance renders itself to the eventual confrontation he so desires, but rarely constitutes, in fact, it’s often the result of his self indulgence that forms the head of the line in this evening’s who’s who of those about to kick his ass. There is one, however, that haunts his memory, forming an outrageous character flaw that can only be hosted by his eternal rival, partner and blessed faction amidst those he calls his closest friends.  He is definitely in love with Olivia, and with no further ado, stands in Race’s way to Olivia’s heart.

Race doesn’t trust the world or those in it. He’s always on guard, ready for a fight … the result of growing up on the streets after the death of his father. He doesn’t trust himself to be in love even though he actually is. He just doesn’t know it. It eats at him. He has to judge others by his own convictions, not reason. What is missing or unresolved from Race’s past is self-knowledge of his place in the world. He feels responsible for his mother’s death and that is something he has not rectified with either his mother or his father. The true ghost is his past … a loss and despair that remains unresolved, standing in his path to freedom from the past and the love of his life.

His future depends upon him coming to grips with his past and getting beyond the unrelenting need for self sacrifice and inner strength of becoming who he needs to be in order to save both himself and the girl he loves, not for lack of courage but rather understanding of his place in the world. He believes, but needs to rectify the past. He is a connoisseur of fine wines, he loves grapes, real food and good conversation, especially when he kind of knows what he’s talking about. He doesn’t like mirrors; they remind him of what flaws he keeps to himself. Race is aware, and awake, loves wherever he is at the moment, but still wishes for someplace else. He’s a lover of fruits, hates vegetables, longs for a taste of home, but finds no time to visit his old stomping ground, even though he lives there from time to time. Amidst his personal favorites: Speed. Race loves the feeling of exhilaration, not the drug. He enjoys the pleasures of wherever he might be, and usually can find his way to the local pub, even if his cold, foamy beverage is served in a dirty glass.

JAMES BASTIAN™,on the other hand, is 33, Human Male,charming to the end. He loves the act of being charismatic, even enchanting. Nevertheless, he’s the first one to seek out confrontation, be it ego or just plain stupidity; James is more likely to start a fight than end it. He is a loner in some ways. He likes his private time, but does nothing with it. Being alone doesn’t bother him unless he gets bored with himself.  He has a tendency to keep himself busy and has no real vice for the art of relaxation. He is his own man, not that he realizes what that means exactly. As a rule James lives by the issue, whatever it is at the moment. He’s honest to a bone, and not able to tell a lie and make it believable, so he uses it to his advantage, tricking those he needs to with the truth of the matter rather than the evidence of whatever reality actually presents him with the facts. He’s a con artist at heart, and quickly can turn a bad situation into an adventure with a promising outcome. James has a hard time hiding his feelings, but in the case of Olivia, he plays the victim whenever confronted with the attraction between Olivia and Race. Anything to keep them from realizing they’re in love with one another. Still, he finds amusement in taxing their relationship and is always on the prowl for a more efficient way to get Olivia’s attention.

James believes he is the center of attention, and rightly so, he sees the world as his playground, free for the taking and he’s efficient at keeping others at bay while he reaps the rewards. However, James isn’t all “Self-sacrifice and give me, give me, give me; I desire it, deserve it and it’s mine.” He’s on a path to self-redemption even if it going to kill him. Olivia is his goal and rightly so, he has a crush on her, and is more than willing to share it with Race.

James is our story’s Antagonist. He’s a pain in the ass! Simple. He’s everything Race is not, and that makes for more than enough conflict in Race’s life. By sheer will, James stands in Race’s way with Olivia, the mission, the conquest of another civilization, even what’s for lunch, yet, there is one action he fails to take, and that’s being true to his own intentions. Emotionally James is an infant. He has no idea how to make amends with those around him, and being sorry isn’t in his vocabulary. He simply doesn’t understand the concept; it is all or nothing; win, lose or draw.  He needs to learn from his mistakes, however, if you ask him, he’s never made a mistake, just miss calculations that lead to an unfavorable outcome.  Above all, he needs to understand what love is, and what it has to do with happiness and pain. It’s all about conquest. He’s a warrior at heart, and an emotional train wreck looking for a place to happen. Consciously, he manages to stay afloat even if he is emotionally detached and longing for something other than whatever objective is immediately in front of him.  Above all else, he wants to be loved, or at least admired. He has only one goal in life, and that is to succeed at whatever his heart desires.

James loves tormenting Race, yet he’s his right hand when he needs to be. He’s loyal to a point and is ready to stand up against whatever foe presents it self. After all, he’s part of the team, and off world exploration is anything if not dangerous.

James is limited only by his perception of right and wrong. He is definitely arrogant, and although he can sometimes actually be helpful, he will only lend a hand if it is in his own best interest and makes him seem superior to the others. And yes, he can be cynical, especially if it puts him in a place were it makes him eager to help others, even if he’s not. James is anything but reliable, even though he isn’t dishonest, he has a way of making it seem that way.  Every bone in his body has a moment to be lazy, crazy, and he is always trying to be funny.

James doesn’t like being called Jim, is compulsive at best, but only when it suits the situation. At best, he’s a non-workaholic, and will find anything else to keep himself busy. In fact, he will go out of his way to make excuses why he’s not up for whatever it is that needs done. They only way he will help is if Olivia puts the screws to him using her influence to get whatever it is she needs from him. His only fears the unknown; it depresses him … he doesn’t like not being in control. Yes, he’s a control freak. Especially in matters of love, and at times he has less compassion than a rock. However, he’s not a masochists or a psychological bat shit crazy asshole either. He has limits. Just doesn’t use them.

James origins refers to him being a member of birth group 2-4-4-7, an enlisted clone, with authorization for Project OR567L with enhanced memory and living light technology – his category: Human with soul actuate: A Living Machine. Point of Origin: Earth, cat one; lunar colony with Mars distribution. Revitalized. Upgraded to Mod 6. FOR MILITARY USE ONLY – Now there’s an oxymoronic statement if I ever heard one. Where else would you use such a creature, or man, human, clone?  And why not … he was created for off world exploration. Assigned to an Industries mining operation set for Tanis, a world in the Enay System: SOL. Third planet from the Sun. Fifth Universe, dimension 3. He was and is a highly decorated officer in the Trithen Industries elite troop of ITOL WARRIORS, and received the astute technologist upgrade, which was added after his first mission success. Assigned to terraforming operations with Race Tanner and Olivia Sutton, his memory wipe was completed prior to assignment. Tactical reconnaissance actuation remains.

James is to be considered hostile if memory cloak is infiltrated or provoked – he was reprogrammed to original specs for research and development, off world mining consortium transit authority authorization: Assignment – Rampian expedition. SOL: Enay System, Catalog anomaly. Multiple universe connection: Approved for wave corridor travel, and was given a Human and alien contact upgrade with memory package. His Records remain CLASSIFIED.

James definitely hasunresolved emotional issues. All references to human contact, love, hate, jealousy, lust, not programmed, allowing self-activation and learning curve. He’s a child with childhood issues on mission in a human killing machine body, reprogrammed to be docile unless provoked or attacked.

James doesn’t know where he belongs, or who he really is. He’s at odds with himself and his bio programing, his memories and conflicting retentions. He’s a hot mess. He needs to resolve conflict physically, but doesn’t know quite how to reason his way out of his situation. His external triggers are anything he doesn’t understand, including his place on the crew. Anything that stands in his way is suspect. He wants to be first and important, so he sees Race as a potential adversary, especially with Olivia. He doesn’t know how to fit in, or how to learn to fit in. He wants to be more than he is, and is trying to figure out what that means. He wants to love, but doesn’t know how to other than imitating others and for this reason, Olivia is of interest. What is missing or unresolved from his past simply comes down to everything. Especially, the memory of other lifetimes he can’t seem to place in context. He sees himself as incomplete, and only a partial man, which tends to irritate him. He knows there’s something missing from his life he just can’t put his finger on it.Simply –the crew’s Safety must come first. Although he doesn’t understand why: It’s not in his makeup to put others first.

His most overwhelming trait is that he is a fidget, and hefidgets. He’s nervously compulsive to the point of being annoying … he loves real meat and the thrill of the hunt. Loves challenges. Some of his personal favorites include all types of music, chocolate, hot women and, of course, alcohol infused anything.

NEXT TIME: We discuss the Magnificent Machines of the ITOL Warriors and the ancient battles fought by humanity in the Human Wars, the reptilian blue skin aliens known as the Skellons and the ancient enemy of life itself.

Reflections is the Blog of Author Grant Fausey
Creator Of Crimson Indigo, Shadowrider: The Last of the Magnificent Machines – The Human Wars, A Mere Drop of Sunshine: The Christmas Auction and the upcoming Haulers Incorporated action/adventure book series

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